sharing

Last vacation time gave me lots of reasons to question lots of things. My dad’s efforts at supporting our family and how dependent we should be of God. 

It started out because I was really worried about how to help finance my sister’s education. No question I would do this, but then, I was also worried on how this would impact plans to setup small businesses. See, by the time my sister will be done with college, I’d be 29 or 30. This, for me, is my ideal marrying age. I’d really like to have businesses set-up for my future family’s security.

All this worries brought me to a point wherein I was slowly losing faith.

See.. I’m a do-er. I don’t really ask others to do things for me. I believe in going after things rather than waiting for things. I believe that the only one who you can really count on is yourself. Others will help, but you can’t really depend on them. If anything goes wrong, I usually blame myself for not being better prepared. Most of all, I hate it when people just sit around and say "God will provide"  without putting in the effort. When I pray, I rarely ask. It’s mostly just to say "thanks". I don’t really count on God to pull me out of each mess I get into. 

I shared this with my Mom. I thought she would understand since I got my workaholic attitude from her anyway. She agreed with the working-hard-for-everything part. She disagreed with me not asking God for help. She also showed me why.

1.  No one EVER thought my brother and I would come to Manila for college. The costs (tuition + living expenses) alone would be too much for my family to bear. Two relatives offered to sponsor all of our expenses. Now my sister is on her way to manila as well.

2.  We almost always won sub prizes in lotteries when the family was really short on cash. (We’ve sold 2 lotto jackpot tickets. Agents get a prize as well.)

3.  We live in a house built by an uncle who lives in the states. That’s free rent, food, & bills for us.

4.  We all turned out all right even though we’ve never had any stable form of income for the past 17 years.

I’ve had nothing to do with any of these things, yet, I wasn’t convinced. I mean.. those things are good, but it won’t help us finance for Nile’s college education here in Manila. 

The other night, we found a very ideal location for (hopefully) laundry shop 2. Yesterday afternoon, I was informed that we would be getting a bonus.  

I’ve had absolutely nothing to do to get these things.  

Luck? Coincidence? Maybe.

God is good? Yeah!

 Oh yeah..if you’ve noticed that problems here are focused on the financial kind, well…let’s just say those are my biggest concerns right now.