Insecurities

I feel insecure a lot of times. Sometimes because I’m going bald at 23. Sometimes becasue I don’t have a car. Sometimes because I don’t live a very carefree life. Sometimes because I don’t have a girlfriend. Sometimes because I can’t jump high enough to dunk the ball. Sometimes because I don’t have a decent singing voice. Sometimes bacause I’m not 6′4″. There are actually a lot more. And YES, most of them are simply ridiculous.

I think it’s normal. I mean, all of us have insecurities. Right?

The thing is that sometimes it’s eating me up. I spend a lot of time thinking about all these things. I complain all the time and I know it’s been putting a lot of people off.

I’ve been going to this Singles For Christ (SFC) Christian Life Program (CLP). In the SFC CLP, I got to listen to what other people are going through in life. I mean, some of these guys are in really deep sh*t compared to what I’m going through… (I can’t share the details).

After hearing what other people are going through (not just in SFC), I can’t help but think that I’m a pretty lucky guy. No kidding… I am lucky!!! Just didn’t realize it. Just didn’t appreciate what I have. And most of the time, I still don’t. Weird huh?!?

I think insecurities will always be there as long as we compare ourselves with others. As long as we have ideals, as long as we aspire for goals, we will always be yearning for more than we are. Needless to say, we will always feel incomplete in a way or two. I guess that’s just how it is.

The thing is, our lives and our situations are the hands being dealt to us. Some of us may have aces, others may have 3’s, but we have no choice but to play that hand, so play it well and stop complaining (especially me). Each one of us knows that we are imprefect. Not all of us accept that.

Note: This is a lot easier said and thought about than actually done… good luck nalang