2.5 for the 25th

I just love using numbers in blog titles.

Anyway, I had another one of those 2.5 nights. I left work at around 2:15, got home at 2:30, packed up, and got a little sleep at around 3am. At 5:20am I was up, packing stuff again.

6:15am I’m at work. 

I’m going home tonight. I’ll bet it’d feel really great to finally get some sleep at my real home. I could probably do some running tomorrow too. We’ll see. My parents’ silver wedding aniversary is on saturday. Hope everything goes as planned.

I should wear black more often. I got a lot of compliments today (thanks thanks), and the only new piece of clothing I have is a black long sleeved shirt that JR and Kenny told me to get. It looks kinda nice though. Oh well.

25

I’m cutting my vacation short. Instead of spending nine days in Cebu (a.k.a. home), im staying here for four more days. Yup, you guessed, I’m doing it all in the name of………. yep, work.

It’s not bad, actually. No one forced me to stay. Even the project manager said it was fine if I left. I didn’t think so. This SATA project is like a baby to me. Gotta spend some more time with her. Yup, it’s not a very fun decision, but I think it’s the right one. I’ll have more time (and hopefully more money) to go home some other time.

Oh, I’m actually really excited to go home. It’s going to be my parents’ 25th wedding anniversary. Next time something as big as this happens on a Nov 4 will be 25 years from now. Hopefully, hopefully, hopefully, (pleeeeaaassseeee!) by then I’ll be a really really rich guy and I could get them a really cool present. Trip around the world? Puydi kayo! I mean, without them, I don’t think I’ll be where I am right now. As my philo teacher always tells us. “We are standing on the shoulders of giants”. Yep, I stand on their shoulders. My parents are giants. Short ones, but with gigantic hearts.

Hmm… I wish I would last 25 years with a girl… that’d be really nice.

There are other things to be excited about too. Let’s just say only hopeless romantic freaks like me and a few others would understand. Figure it out.
p.s. Daghang salamat kang Soon ug kang 5 “leave the kids alone”.. Idol tamo duha bai!!! Bawi lang lagi ko. Pramis!!! sulti lang!

One Sided

Played a few pick-up games last night at Park 9. I felt really good to be running the way I did. I haven’t run like that since my 3rd and 4th years in college.

It was a good first 2 games. During the third game, I drove past the outside defenders and that’s when I got hit on my right thight by a big guy’s knee. It was a really hard hit.  Remember, I was going full speed and he was really big. Anyway, I couldn’t run well after that, which means that I became more or less useless on the court. (Running is pretty much all I do)

Oh well, that’s part of the game. I still hurts to bend my right leg today though. I’ll have to use the left leg a lot more.
This morning, when I put on my headphones to listen to some music. The left side wasn’t working. Talk about coincidence. Hehehe. Anyway, it was the headphone extension wire that was messed up. I kinda fixed it up a bit, and now I’m listening to the right sound channel (is the terminology correct??) in both my left and right ears.  I guess it’s life in  mono for now.

Blocked

teka.. we have received reports na ginagago lang pala ako.

klaruhin muna natin to bago magbibintang

hehehehe 

Balik ‘Tas Pagka-Tihik

Karun kay nisweldo na kog usab, balik a pud tas pagka-tihik. Humana ang mga semana nga gasunod-sunod ang bangka. Dako-dako pud tag nagasto ato ba, pero ok lang. Sobra sobra man sad ta ka-bintaha karun. Maayo man sad nang i-bahin ang swerte ba, dili maghinangul kay katong nangihanglan kog kasturya, katong nanginahanlan kog kauban, katong gakalisud ko, naa man gyud koy maduulan. Wala man ko nila pasagda-i gyud. Mao DAKO KAAYO ako pasalamat. Maayo pud ning maka-balus ta ginagmay. Ang mga taga-Cebu nalang ang wa pa katilaw sa bangka. Sagdi lang.. ug makauli ko, na, bisag pila pa ka-steam rice o ginabot. hahahaha. tanawn lang…

Pero tanan nga nakaila nako, makasulti man nga naa man gyud koy pagka-tihik. Mu lakaw man lang gani ko kaysa mugasto sa jeep. Hehehe. Mao man gud na ako nakat-unan sukad pas pagkabata nako. Tihik ako mama, tihik pud ako lola, karun, ako napud. Maayo ra pud, kay ug dili pa ko tihik, hurut-hurut na ato wawart.. Wa man lay matigum gamay.. Usik ba…

Mao karun, mag tinihik napud tag usab. Tiguman nako ang MBA (hinaot unta). o kung dili gani, mag negosyo.. may unta ug makasugud ko sa negosyo ug ginagmay. Bisan pa sideline2x lang, pwede na siguro.. mao gatigum pud ko para ipalit ug laptop. Magamit man gyud ni ug madayun ang mga plano. Mabawi ra na sa mga project. Maynta lang gyud.

Sa mga dili diay kasabot.. Sori nalang. Gusto ko mag binisaya usahay.. Saon, bisag sige tag ininglis or tinagalog karun, BISDAK man gyud akong kasing-kasing. Hehe.

Ayo2x nya a!!

Insecurities

I feel insecure a lot of times. Sometimes because I’m going bald at 23. Sometimes becasue I don’t have a car. Sometimes because I don’t live a very carefree life. Sometimes because I don’t have a girlfriend. Sometimes because I can’t jump high enough to dunk the ball. Sometimes because I don’t have a decent singing voice. Sometimes bacause I’m not 6′4″. There are actually a lot more. And YES, most of them are simply ridiculous.

I think it’s normal. I mean, all of us have insecurities. Right?

The thing is that sometimes it’s eating me up. I spend a lot of time thinking about all these things. I complain all the time and I know it’s been putting a lot of people off.

I’ve been going to this Singles For Christ (SFC) Christian Life Program (CLP). In the SFC CLP, I got to listen to what other people are going through in life. I mean, some of these guys are in really deep sh*t compared to what I’m going through… (I can’t share the details).

After hearing what other people are going through (not just in SFC), I can’t help but think that I’m a pretty lucky guy. No kidding… I am lucky!!! Just didn’t realize it. Just didn’t appreciate what I have. And most of the time, I still don’t. Weird huh?!?

I think insecurities will always be there as long as we compare ourselves with others. As long as we have ideals, as long as we aspire for goals, we will always be yearning for more than we are. Needless to say, we will always feel incomplete in a way or two. I guess that’s just how it is.

The thing is, our lives and our situations are the hands being dealt to us. Some of us may have aces, others may have 3’s, but we have no choice but to play that hand, so play it well and stop complaining (especially me). Each one of us knows that we are imprefect. Not all of us accept that.

Note: This is a lot easier said and thought about than actually done… good luck nalang

Pamatay Na Linya (Lines That Kill)

Braveheart (Movie)

 ”Your heart is free. Have the courage to follow it”

 ”Men don’t follow titles, they follow courage”

 ”Everyone dies, not everyone really lives”
 

Question 1

Anong pinagka-iba ng confident at sa feeling? tingin nyo?

kristy a:
    “ang confident may ibubuga, may karapatan cya… ang feeling nanaginip lang talga.”

other ideas?

Inappropriate Wedding Song

I was listening to a song in winamp and it made me remember something. Ok, I was having dinner at SeaSide (Macapagal Ave.). The folks sittng a few tables beside us had newlyweds. Anyway, there was a band playing in the background, food was great, etc…

A couple of the newlyweds’ friends (1 male, 1 female) jammed with the band and dedicated a duet to the happy couple. The song was “Bakit Ngayon Ka Lang” by Freestyle. I love the song, nice tune, nice composition and all, but I thought, “hmmm… not an appropriate song at all!!!”.

Here’s a few lines from that song:

Bakit ngayon ka lang
Bakit ngayon kung kailan ang aking puso’y
Mayron nang laman
Sana’y nalaman ko
Na darating ka sa buhay
‘Di sana’y naghihtay ako

Ikaw sana ang aking yakap-yakap
Ang iyong kamay lagi ang aking hawak
At hindi kanya

Doesn’t that feel weird?? I was thinking, “Endless Love” is a nice song for a duet. Anyway, that’s what I thought.

hmm… or did they have other partners before they met each other? could be..  

Anyway, hope the happy couple is doing well

88.5

the latest report shows I’m up to 88.5 hours of OT. still no life… just hope it pays off.

Fate?

Isn’t it funny how you find things when you don’t seek them out? How things just all seem to fall into place when you’ve lost all hope.  hmmm…

God? fate? luck? karma?…

…serendipity?

hehehe 

who knows?

Not Myself

“the boker i used to know couldn’t do anything to hurt someone else.”
what joyce said got me thinking all night. (by the way, thanks joyce!)

sadly, this is true and it’s actually scary.

to some extent:

i’ve stopped caring.
stopped being conscious of what other people feel.
stopped looking forward.
stopped hoping.
stopped being patient.
stopped being who i was.

started drinking (more than I should).
started swearing.
started making fun of people.
started being mayabang.

seems like I’ve lost a lot more than I thought. I’ve lost myself. Sorry talga sa mga nasaktan

and hey, please let me know if i’m offending you. it really helps us both.

oh yeah, it’s been a quite a nice day so far